Bottling up things may help for the moment, but the more and more you save everything in that small jar the more it's going to get full, the more pressure it will have and when you try to add another little thing it explodes.
I have tried to express my feelings, what I felt, what I thought, but in the end even the people that told me they would be there for me gave me their backs.
"It's not that important".
"There's people that has it worse".
So I shut them out too.
I wonder if there's someone that won't be annoyed by me, that won't mind me not being okay all the time, someone I can trust won't make me feel guilty for having feelings.
Will that ever happen?
I don't know.